hard to move, easy to stop...

Liu Ru Ting Have die just today.....

What a depressed day again

Why, what, how, damm.... T_T ... really fell like ending my life... but kinda think of my parents..

I dare not do it... If they are the the problem, i might have ended long before. I was afraid they will be sad

when i go.. just like how my brother left my third aunt(god mother).

 

Just what the hack am i doing all this day? Can't i just forget everything, then move on... Yar... I have tried before, but it keep failing... i just wanted someone to share my sorrow.. but i just can't find... T_T

Why? am i so ill-fated. Why??? haix....

 

CNY is ard the corner, but i just don't feel any joy for it.. this year lantern i do like shit.. no mood to decorate, pack my room, do project.. and most of all.. i have lose faith in chanting to gohonson. Great aint it? Just a small problem.. then it turn out like that le.. i really really didn't blame anyone.. i just blame myself... for.. for being too in love..

 

Just bought finish my pants and shoe.. woot.. cost me a bomb... lolx... omg.. i just luff.. i shdn't have luff.. hai.. i going to be mad le.. be positive.. think good.. forget.. this words doesn't work on me le...

I am stubborn.. i wont listen much to ppl de... I am devoted.. don't ever make me fall in love with u... hai... i... i suck..... thats true... i... i am lonely, true again..

 

Kinda think of it, some of my friends can't see me having problem.. Its just like that.. I am a double faced person. Can feel happy and can feel real depress in a second. sad hor.. T_T.. i don't want to live in the sorrow anymore.. i just give myself sometime.. maybe after cny.. after that, i dunno what am i going to do.. 1.)life in sorrow.. nah.. don wan.. 2.) end this life and born in another life (Yeah!!!) 3.)forget and move on (HARD AND DAMM DAMM DAMMM hard..... lol..)

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MIA for outfear1987@gmail.com from now till... haix..

I know no one bother to read my blog... But i still write.. blog is for me to write.. for me to see... for me to think and for me to ponder...

Yar.. i will be MIA for this shitty account le.... No reason... just... tired.... =/ msn caused me a lotsa problem... haix.. haix... haix... wanted to shake away with it. But hor... there is no one available when i need them. But i know... i am the friend that will be there whenever u need me... sure de.. even it cost my life.. everyone treat things differently. Some care for themselves first before others... others diff.. care for others and care for himself/herself last. I like the second part and i belong to the second part. But shake head... There's a words say:"Only when troubles come, you will then know who is your real friends" Friends belong to a lot of category:

 

- Part- time friends

Only there when they need u (BASTARD)

 

- Full- time friends

There will u need them or when they need u.. this will eventually turn out to be true friends...

 

- sch friends

There when in sch lor.. simple.. lolx.. after sch, each have his/her own life...

 

- Friends

Only friends.... nothing more then that... lolx...friends lor.. u friend me and i friend u..

 

Hmm... thats all ba.. if there someone reading... tell me more about friends you know that doesnt belong to the category.. lolx.. =)

finish poly soon... real soon..

Wa.. sianx... beri sianx... lol.. my life sux... beri sux... now 18 le.. still like that sux.. no aim de.. lol... got aim lar.. but.. don't look real.. my aim are to go U and be a businessman... lolx.. i wan car.. subaru impreza WRX. A new home.... lol...

I have nothing much to blog too.. kind of hate blogging le.. oO? don ask me why.. lol.. later kanna go court.. lol.. ^_^" tml holiday.. but dunno how to spt it... work on project ba.. got 2 need to hand in by tml...

Maybe its time to let go everything le... maybe thats will work for me ba.. i need support now.. real support.. thx for a few that are there when i need them.. that what friends are for rite? haha... yar... lolx..

i look like i am okay.. but actually... i am wretch for the pass few days... i nv show to anyone.. maybe.. >.<"

Making lantern period now also.. lolx.. need rush work... kind of funny rite? a guy like me will make lantern de.. weird... but i also dunno when.. since secondary one starting to make lantern... make and make till now.. lolx... if u want lantern.. order from me.. i will sell u for S$0. haha... i nv charge ppl for money de... whats the pt.. spoilt friendship nia.. friendship.. hmm.. nvm.. lolx.. i have not much friends though... maybe when i become rich one day.. i will have a lots... maybe the old friends will approach me.. lol... money bring everything? i don't think so.. i hate ppl who like money then make friends with u.. wtf... lolx.. money face.. u will get what u seed... haha.. ORBI.. =x i a bit crazy le.. rite now i need someone to talk with... hai.... shake head~

Btw... cyndi album release le.. quite disappointing... though i am a fan of her... haha... i hope its a new beginning for me... i wish that i have no more worries... no more troubles.... nth nth at all...

Sick..

Having fever + flu + headache now... no one care.. nobody know i am dead or alive.. i am again.. alone.... alone in this true world.... But i know one person care... ty... u shd know who are u ba. keke...

Seem like i having a lotsa problem.. a lotsa just alotsa... Disappoinment, sadness, all sort of negative feeling i all encounter... haha..
Friends... i haven none true friends.. so what is true friends?
- A friend that care and concern
- A friend that are there when u are in trouble
- A friend that need help from you
- A friend that won't ignore you
- A friend that lend u their listen ear
I am a true friend to almost anyone... but i have none a true friend... not a single one... T-T
Yar.. one of my friend told me that, "Things doesn't happen by luck, its just how u handle it... and why ppl treat u like that? oO The problem to solve it is not to follow the path of that person who are treating you that time... then, u will be a better person.."

I agree, but its just that my nature, my nature of scoprio to be "SENSITIVE". Its not easy for me.. to treat other ppl and being treat by other completely differently. I just hate to see that. Its not fair... Why did the hell i being so kind all this well? Can't i be bad to friends? why cant??? why... then maybe i will receive the treating i am treating them... thats bad.. but i like it... cause... its fair... but now it is not fair..

I tried to chant very very very very hard.... the problem still coming my way straight... I really wanted to cry out loud to the whole singapore.. i really canot take this kind of treatment anymore... i just cant... if i can.. i don wan to stay here anymore, i will go overseas to live for the rest of my life... i hate here.. i HATE HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!1

New Year resolution

Been a while since i had post any entries.. =) I am in SP lap room now... waititng for the appointment for the elective thing.. -_-" sian dao 1/2 . waste my time. Can go home and play one.Then got one faggort friend sitting beside me. His name is Jerome Quah. I think he is surfing xxx now.. haha.. no la.. jk...

So fast arhx... 2006 le.. remember i get into sp in the year 2004. haha.. 2 years have passed. One more year to go. Then leave SP, go ns.

My New Year Resolution for 2006

- Be Happier and lifely Liu Ru Ting
- Complete my SP life asap
- Chant more to the Gohonson(maybe 15mins to 30 mins/day)

Think thats all for this year resolution. Althought ver little things. But its hard for me to achieve it. haha... hmm... ^_^ Hmm... for the pass few month or many week since i last post, a lot of things happen. Didn't want to talk about it. Thats why i MIA for so so so so long. Cause i am stress up, tired to do almost anything everyday. Haha... I really really hate things like relationship and friendship. Really.. Not that i don't like my friends.. just that, why am i always the one to take initiative/ approach? I am so tired about it man.. just tired.. thats why i been pondering for quite a while. Then recently something really irritated me very much. But it does not matter much to me. I seen this sort of cases in my work too. ^_^ i am a anything guy. anything also can de.. ^_^ haha.. i also looking positive for things like this.. but also look for the negative like relationship. hmm... Yar.. i won't take initiative anymore. i would want someone to approach me now... If now.. pretent i am MIA ba... i don't care.. i give up on it... give up...