What a depressed day again

Why, what, how, damm.... T_T ... really fell like ending my life... but kinda think of my parents..

I dare not do it... If they are the the problem, i might have ended long before. I was afraid they will be sad

when i go.. just like how my brother left my third aunt(god mother).

 

Just what the hack am i doing all this day? Can't i just forget everything, then move on... Yar... I have tried before, but it keep failing... i just wanted someone to share my sorrow.. but i just can't find... T_T

Why? am i so ill-fated. Why??? haix....

 

CNY is ard the corner, but i just don't feel any joy for it.. this year lantern i do like shit.. no mood to decorate, pack my room, do project.. and most of all.. i have lose faith in chanting to gohonson. Great aint it? Just a small problem.. then it turn out like that le.. i really really didn't blame anyone.. i just blame myself... for.. for being too in love..

 

Just bought finish my pants and shoe.. woot.. cost me a bomb... lolx... omg.. i just luff.. i shdn't have luff.. hai.. i going to be mad le.. be positive.. think good.. forget.. this words doesn't work on me le...

I am stubborn.. i wont listen much to ppl de... I am devoted.. don't ever make me fall in love with u... hai... i... i suck..... thats true... i... i am lonely, true again..

 

Kinda think of it, some of my friends can't see me having problem.. Its just like that.. I am a double faced person. Can feel happy and can feel real depress in a second. sad hor.. T_T.. i don't want to live in the sorrow anymore.. i just give myself sometime.. maybe after cny.. after that, i dunno what am i going to do.. 1.)life in sorrow.. nah.. don wan.. 2.) end this life and born in another life (Yeah!!!) 3.)forget and move on (HARD AND DAMM DAMM DAMMM hard..... lol..)

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