heart-broken & tired

I can feel my heart ripping, tearing apart, and feeling extremely tired and depressed. I sacrifice myself for her, willing to do anything just to help her, now that I have landed into a dark pit myself after helping her which is beyond my very limit. I have help to borrow money from friends around me, sold my favourite xbox 360, sold my newly bought handphone. I didn't want anything much from her, just to care about me a little bit more. There is more conversion to talk about money with her than any other things else. I just feel real tired. How does she feel after all the time i have been helping her? Holding on tight on the rope, never wanted to let go cause i know that no other person will be able to lend her money. But I am feeling really tired. Whenever i looked into the sky at night, listen to her fav song, my eyes will fill with tears. I wanted to just leave everything, to give up everything. But I loved her. I always place her 1st and myself to be the last. Yes, I am suffering real badly now. I have a lot of debts to clear and having weak health. I stop eating normal and healthy meal when i am in camp. I filled my full with only coffee and Oreos inside my office. I stay in almost everyday or only go home when my boss is driving back. Cause why? I ain't have any money for myself. Not a single dollar left...