Devastated

Feeling devastated of me, after what have happen,

Life is so unexpectable

Human always have the same habit, the habit of taking things for granted. They only regret when it’s too late. It is a mistake that we all made, a universal mistake.

Just concentrate and ponder who the person that never failed to help you, always be there for you even though they themselves are suffering, but, they didn’t mind. Because they always put you first in their list and most importantly, they loved you more than they love themselves.

Few days earlier, somebody that I have known for decade passed away. A Mom of 2 kids age 13 and 14. I felt devastated upon hearing this news. Life is so unpredictable, nobody know what is tomorrow be like, the future to be like.

The only thing, I guess that we can do is to really treasure everything around us. It is a blessing to have someone to love you, to care for you and be there always for you. Enjoy being love is 1 thing, but in return of treasuring them will make this world much more blissful.

heart-broken & tired

I can feel my heart ripping, tearing apart, and feeling extremely tired and depressed. I sacrifice myself for her, willing to do anything just to help her, now that I have landed into a dark pit myself after helping her which is beyond my very limit. I have help to borrow money from friends around me, sold my favourite xbox 360, sold my newly bought handphone. I didn't want anything much from her, just to care about me a little bit more. There is more conversion to talk about money with her than any other things else. I just feel real tired. How does she feel after all the time i have been helping her? Holding on tight on the rope, never wanted to let go cause i know that no other person will be able to lend her money. But I am feeling really tired. Whenever i looked into the sky at night, listen to her fav song, my eyes will fill with tears. I wanted to just leave everything, to give up everything. But I loved her. I always place her 1st and myself to be the last. Yes, I am suffering real badly now. I have a lot of debts to clear and having weak health. I stop eating normal and healthy meal when i am in camp. I filled my full with only coffee and Oreos inside my office. I stay in almost everyday or only go home when my boss is driving back. Cause why? I ain't have any money for myself. Not a single dollar left...

如果你也听说

突然发现站了好久 不知道要往哪走
还不想回家的我 再多人陪只会更寂寞
许多话题关于我 就连我也有听过
我的快乐要被认可 委屈却没有人诉说
夜把心洋葱般剥落 拿掉防卫剩下什么
为什么脆弱时候 想你更多

如果你也听说 有没有想过我
想普通交朋友 还是你依然会心疼我
好多好多的话想对你说 悬着一颗心没着落
要怎么附和 舍不得又无可奈何

如果你也听说 会不会相信我
对流言会附和 还是你知道我还是我
跌跌撞撞才明白了许多 懂我的人就你一个
想到你想起我 胸口依然温柔
许多话题关于我 就连我也有听过
我的快乐要被认可 委屈却没有人诉说
夜把心洋葱般剥落 拿掉防卫剩下什么
为什么脆弱时候 想你更多

如果你也听说 有没有想过我
想普通交朋友 还是你依然会心疼我
好多好多的话想对你说 悬着一颗心没着落
要怎么附和 舍不得又无可奈何

如果你也听说 会不会相信我
对流言会附和 还是你知道我还是我
跌跌撞撞才明白了许多 懂我的人就你一个
想到你想起我 胸口依然温柔

如果你想起我你会想到什么

A little about flipflopboy

It been a while since i last blog, remembering all the past events that happened in my life, those down, up times.
We can wait for minutes, hours and maybe days, but the clock will just keep going, sec by sec, mins and hours. 21st. Have already hit the 20s. Still slogging hard with my life. There's too much stuff that making me suffocate. There's something that i hated most, its relationship. It is really hard to find true love nowadays. People goes for sex for pleasure, and mostly, fun. If you are whealthy, you will find love. Things have change and so do people and thats for real. I guess i am the only one chasing the train and lagging behind with the change. I don't go for sex to a girl that i don't love. I just feel that, sex is something that make couple more intimate, more close together.

An intimate relationship is a particularly close interpersonal relationship. It is a relationship in which the participants know or trust one another very well or are confidants of one another, or a relationship in which there is physical or emotional intimacy.

Why do people go for sex when they don't like one another and having sex just for fun? Doesn't it make us look no better than animals? Maybe animals is much more better. They do so as to reproduce. Beasts is a better word for it.

21st Birthday celebration

As from today, i am 21. True, time never wait. Life still have to move on.