Lonely

I am so Lonely... so depressed.. i dunno what am i.. since when i become so intesively sensitive...
what the hack am i doing... why? why can't i know the reason? If there is one day... "IF" i do sometime stupid... plz don get sad abt it... haah... who will? i am a faggot what... T-T why doesn't anyone care about me... why? am i such a bad guy? maybe... ya.. i am... i am a nuthing... i am nuthing... i am not rich.. i am not everything...
Why can't i stop all this things and continue my life? why this keep disturbing me.. 'this' refer to my sensitiveness.... haix... i am beyond cure... better off die... better.... haah.... then there will be a less bastard in the world... rite? yes... rite... But if i nv die... there a mission i wanted to do.. that is earn money... to become rich... not to being step down by ppl... and to support my papa and mama... I learn a lot of things about life... a lots of other ppl exprience... and i understand the feeling... lolx.. i am a prof in this... lol... hmm.... haix....